Speaking of Grace....

It occurred to me that when it comes to grace, I am constantly short-changing myself. I can't remember the last time I fully allowed grace to come and cover me. Not just the grace that forgives (I don't know about you, but to me grace often only comes when I feel forgiven- yes feel), but the grace that wraps around me and bundles me from allowing the foolish things I do (where forgiveness doesn't exactly need to be applied) to weigh me down.

Can grace be applied to when we are embarrassing? When I act foolishly and waves of self-consciousness flood over me, I never ever allow grace to flood overtop of the feeling of inadequacy. Nor do I give the people around me, those closest to me, the opportunity to offer grace, I'm too busy apologizing or feeling like an idiot.

I wonder how my confidence would look if I quit holding tight to the foolish feelings and instead just embraced grace. I think I'd be the very most me. With the strongest sense of self-awareness and confidence.

If I just embraced grace.

Visiting 'Dassah

Lindsey and I are heading up to Bob Winn's to check out 'Dassah tonight.

It's so strange to feel this way, to have such hope in an area where in the past hope was merely praying to get through the year.

If I knew then what I know now, how to work with the horse, how to build a partnership with them, how to move forward in that partnership, that past hope would have a partnership with joy.

I know, I know, "what if's" are fool's play.

How difficult it is (and reluctant I am) to allow grace to cover me.